Hey there, sorry I’ve not blogged sooner its all been a bit hectic!
So whats happened since we last chatted?
Well, I am slowly getting back to the work stuff. And when i say slowly I really mean it. It has been extremely tiring and at times really tough to get through a day, but all of my team & peeps in the Insurance world are taking good care of me. Its a funny place sometimes, and we all run around like maniacs meeting targets & deadlines, entertaining Clients, as well as ourselves occasionally. Its high pressure, big numbers, difficult situations that need quick decisions and a diplomatic hand (don’t laugh, I can be diplomatic sometimes). There are moments when I do wonder why I do this for a living as I am sure we all do, especially at the tricky & full on times, but I wouldn’t change it for the world. Why? The people. Its like a mini family. We argue, sulk, then we make up (usually over a drink). But when times are tricky they are all there for you. Even when they don’t realise they are giving you a lift, they are.
Its been a tough fortnight on the home front. Tiredness is half the battle. Im a bit of a perfectionist (yes, I know thats a surprise to you all!) and I am getting really annoyed with myself for not being on top of my game right now. I am my harshest critic.
The other half of the battle and the toughest thing is the sale of my Mum & Dads house. I really didn’t think it would be such a wrench, but it has been. This week I flew to Spain for 2 days to check the house over, finalise the paperwork, clean it (Mum would kill me if it wasn’t spotless!) & hand over the keys to the lovely new owners who are starting a new life in Spain together-just as my parents did. That bit I am glad of. Why should that bother me? Let me explain.
Mum & Dad lived on an urbanisation where there is a real sense of community. When Mum died, the community suffered. They had lost 2 friends in Mum & Jean that night, both killed outright in the crash. Two husbands were left grief stricken, and although the community tried to help them, they couldn’t. Life was never the same for that community.
When Dad died it brought up all the emotions again for them all. They had lost yet another close friend. All totally needless.
So I am so relieved that a new couple looking for the idyllic lifestyle are buying their new home from me. I want them to enjoy it, and I know that community can start again and have happy times again.
It was a tough trip for me. I laid in bed all night not sleeping, just thinking of all the good times there. The parties, the Christmas celebrations, & the people. I did a lot of talking to Mum & Dad, a lot of crying, even some screaming. It needed to happen however tough it was.
It was daylight before I knew it. Exhausted, drained, & numb I came home after a final goodbye to some really special people.
I cant really remember getting home. My mind was empty. I listened to my iPod all the way home. I have no idea what was playing. The lovely lady next to me on the plane gave me a hug when she saw I was a bit upset. She didn’t ask why, or say too much, she was just there. Its like my Mum was there to hold my hand. I slept well that night.
The house sale is completed on Friday & I am relieved. But Im sad at the same time. Very sad. I know its for the best & it means my seaside dream is coming true, which excites me massively. But for this week, I need to say goodbye.
The next challenge is Christmas. Its going to be completely different for me this year. I have been blessed till now to be surrounded by Family on Xmas Day. Thats gone. I will have a wonderful time still with all my lovely friends, but its going to be a bit strange! Well, i guess every cloud has a silver lining & at least Im not on a plane, carrying half of Tesco’s Xmas Food supplies for once…..
So please bear with me for a few weeks. Im not myself. Im not the usual Al. I will be soon I promise, but in the meantime Im going to need all your kindness, tea making, wine/gin drinking, laughter & hugs. I have no doubt I’ll be back to the annoying jolly Al in no time with all of that.
Take care, drink and eat loads, & enjoy.
See you in 2 weeks!!